I'm wide awake at 2:21am

and I cant find anything to do but talk to you my son. Did you know that your grandfather went out with my Mother when I was dating your uncle??? He died owing mom 50.00 silly things you remember when you can't sleep.

Raphael Guillen was your grandfathers name
you knew your grandmother

all of Raphael's brothers came in contact with me and your auntie lin and auntie Peg ......

Raphael had so many kids by your grandma I don't even know all those names and you probably do.

But before I met your Dad I met your Uncle, I wonder why he told me I'd fall in love with his brother (which I did)... he use to always call me a witch cause I always knew what he was up to. Then for him to tell me the future...... makes me wonder????

We almost had an all in the family relationship your Mom and Aunts with the Solorios & Mezas.
Isnt that odd???? Everything is done for a purpose I wonder what that purpose was.

I read your blog and I want you to know I have not given up.

The heat is off again and I'm sitting here with a blanket wrapped around me and nothing on my freezin toes. but when I get in bed my eyes pop wide open and my legs feel real hot and start hurting. So I just can't sleep.

I haven't been to work since 2006...no lie.
But......that's okay

Let me tell you about your uncle Bob......he and his stepdad (MY Dad) didn't get along when he tried to find his Dad in 72 he found out he had died several months before. He was heart broken he wanted to know his Dad so bad.
As a youngster Bob was always in trouble. Ended up in what they called the Audi home. til he was 18 and then they sent him to the army and he wouldnt listen there either. So he got out and then got married but hated working under someone, he had to have his own company. So that's what he did.
He bought equiptment and did all kind of hard manual labor but there was no boss over him and sometimes that's just how people are.
He was married 3 times. He has one son. But we'll never see him. I've got a photo of him when he was young but he's got to be alot older by now. Maybe 18-19 I'm not sure.

Aunt Peg and Uncle Bob could jitterbug like nobodies business they always went to dances and won for the best dancers. They'd kick back the rugs at home and push back the furnish when mom and dad weren't home and practice we loved watching them. They were so good. That's why Auntie Peg would always try to do it for us to see if she still had it, however those old knees quit jittering..
When Bobby came home from the service Mom hid him on me and he use to always call me 'babydoll".....When I came in he was hiding in the bathroom and I 'll never forgt how he picked me up and threw me around in the air. Made me feel special.
Bobby is a great guy and now he lives all alone and misses us all so much. I'm hoping one day before it s too late I can go see him. That his my hope... I really do miss him.

Bobby is the one who taught me how to ride a bike and I made him promise he wont let go of me and he promised he wouldnt. Then he ran me in to a garbage can in the alley...... so I thought, the bugger had let go and I drove right into it. But he put me back on it and said okay now ride it back home. and I did..... Bobby was there I knew I'd be okay. strange how you put all your trust in people??